was watching the biggest loser after exams.. and actually finished it like two days ago, so i procrastinated this long before blogging.. (more bout that later)
i noe this sounds really weird, but i got quite emotional watching the show (maybe my friend who visits every month contributed) but.. yeah it really got me thinking.. there was this one guy who said,' if i dun even love myself, how can i expect others to love me?' and i was like, woah, makes a hell lot of sense. i dont noe if i love myself.. but i do noe that i love people around me.. i guess some like my family just love me unconditionally but the rest... i really dont noe? quite surprised that watching this reality tv show actually set me thinking.. but its really amazing, there was this guy who lost half of himself on the show! soo scary. and to think that i was there munching on chips whilst he was slogging his guts out at the gym.. unhealthy me ): but determined them. i would never be able to do what they are doing. i tink i give up too easily.
mm but i did imagine my dad being on the show (that is if he is even willing to go in the first place) aand mmm.. not a nice sight. and although daddy has a round and solid belly, i tink its quite cute. dun tink he qualifies anyway, cause the peopl who were on the show were like 200 over kg at the beginning.. my dad is not even half that =P
mm like i said above, i was supposed to type this 2 days ago but i kinda put it off and so now i forgot some of the initial thoughts i had whilst watching. its kinda like opportunites isnt it, sometimes when u leave it for later, it just disappears and becomes lost. maybe i shouldnt do this anymore.. but den again.. i probably dont have that determination to go on.. have been sitting on the thought of sending an email for a long time.. and i still dunno if i should and even if i do, what sort of reply im waiting for.. i have so many i dunno's in my head its frustrating, but yet i dunno (again) how im going to solve that qn. why cant my short term memory apply to those as well. or maybe.. i should just get a new brain. im probably the biggest loser (literally)
anyways.. my blog has been dead for so long, not sure if u guys will read this anyways
yc